what should i do?

hmm..
what should i do?
before starting study again, maybe in another few weeks..
feel like i can't wait to meet new friends,
can't wait to create new history, moments..
i really can't wait for that moment...

i got matrix in n9, have to register on 10 may..
but my parents asked to wait for upu result.

my heart said, "Let's wait for the mara interview result".
my head said, "If u don't get the scholarship?"
my heart replied, "Then, it's ok.. there must be good reason if Allah has set me to study local"
head: "U don't jealous with others who got the scholarship?"
heart: "Quite jealous, but i grateful, because i have got something better, as long as i study well, i can create the history anywhere"
head: "What if others make fun of you for not studying in oversea?"
heart; "So what, like I care if they make fun of me, who are they to judge me so badly like that, i only can pray for their success always, hope one day i can prove to them that finally the will to succeed is going to win..

no matter what will be the result on this 17 may, i only hope that Allah will make me strong to face anything that will come ahead..

if i got the scholarship, ya Allah, please guide me and never leave me, even I'll leave my parents, but ya Allah, please remind me to always be with you, until forever, made me strong to face the obstacle that awaiting for me in the future, fulfill all my dream to achieve everything i want.. alhamdulillah ya Allah..

if i don't get the scholarship, alhamdulillah ya Allah, for deciding the best for me.. alhamdulillah ya Allah.. make me stronger to face everything that came ahead in my studies, guide me closer to you, ya Allah.. make me full of spirit to achieve my dreams, so one day, i can help my family, ya Allah..

amin ya rabbal 'alamin..

i'm not going to give up on a thing that i don't get started yet!!!
my greatest glory in not in never falling, but keep rising up every time i fall.